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Saturday, June 29, 2013

10 Questions About Me...

I've been so excited about getting new followers! 
So since I am slowly building up my readers I thought I would spend my next couple posts doing some introductory posts that I have found from other bloggers.
I do have an About Me page, but there is something about random Q&A that sparks fun conversation.
I just love it!

Todays is 10 Random Questions About Me (how original LOL)

1. My childhood nickname was and still is Nikki. There are other variations, and my father calls me Nik, but Nikki has stood strong since I was a kid.
2. If you want to spoil me rotten, buy me shoes! I am an addict (shopaholic overall) but shoes are my favorite. There are so many styles and colors and you can pretty much shape an outfit based on shoes. Also when it comes to shopping for clothes I need to be in a happy mood with how my body is. But shoes ALWAYS fit no matter what. So if you are having a "bloated" day because of your period, or you aren't liking how your hair looks so you don't want to stare at a mirror all day, try on some shoes. They definitely improve my mood.
3. The television character I most identify with is Lauren from "The Hills" Yes it is reality TV, and yes some of it is scripted, but most of the situations that she dealt with on the show with friends and guys I have definitely been through or I am currently dealing with it now. Being in your 20s is harder than it used to be and the evolution of people and culture has factored into so many things being a hot mess. But yeah Lauren Conrad i feel you on a lot of stuff boo.
4. If I had a whole day to go shopping and money to spend, I would probably update my wardrobe. I spend a majority of my money on shoes, but now is the time that I think my clothes need to catch up and be just as fabulous! And I wouldn't want to go to the mall either. I would definitely hit specific stores I know that cater to my body type and get what I truly want. I change my style up a lot depending on my mood so I would love my closet to reflect that.
5. The most wild and crazy thing I have ever done (that I can admit to publicly) Dancing on top of a bar in Tampa. It is not in my normal mind to do so, but it was kind of fun to really just not care what anyone thought and get up there and dance the night away. It happened to be a part of the bar that no one was trying to order drinks from so I think that was very considerate of us.lol I will say it is not an easy feat in stilettos!
6. The one thing on my bucket list that I am most eager to do is hmm probably a tie between go to a shooting range or finish my list of tattoos I want done. I am still working on my 101 in 1001 list, and those 2 things are on it. I think it will kind of exhilarating to try using a gun. I don't think I would ever want to own one or do it regularly, but Ive heard its a great way to safely blow off some steam of stress. And I am addicted to tattoos (i already have 3) and I would like 5 more. I already have a list of them, but money is always the issue in order to get them and these will take time. My shoulder piece is next up, which will probably be the most expensive and the most time consuming, but it will mean the most to me.
7. My family will always be loyal to me. I am an only child and I find my family to be relatively small compared to most of my friends. But speaking generally with my parents, they have my back and vice versa. My mom and dad are there for me no matter what. Over the last 3 years i have gone through some rough stuff, but I know that they are able to give me a shoulder to cry on, words of advice, or encouragement, or even to yell. I need that kick in the pants sometimes and they will do it even when I'm older and have a family of my own.
8. If I could spend a day with a celebrity I would choose probably Rihanna. It would be the most outrageous and eventful day of my life! She is such a chameleon and I love that about her. She also doesn't really care what anyone thinks and lives her life to the fullest. In my opinion anyway. Most people don't really like her, just her fun music.
9. In my opinion, the best invention in the history of the world is electricity. Its such a broad one but honestly so many things go back to needing power to have it. Seriously. Pretty much everything.
10. When life hands me lemons, I take shots! lol Yeah you should make lemonade and make the most of a situation, but when I'm going through something hard I like to have a distraction. Going out with my friends and drinking is definitely a distraction. I'm young and I still like to have fun so that is my answer right now.

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Saturday, June 15, 2013

Break Up

I needed to have a moment and write a post about how I'm feeling right now...

My original intent for my blog has always been to write out my feelings and thoughts in order to have an outlet so my brain isn't always cluttered. That hasn't happened in awhile, but that is because I tend to distract my feelings with fun things. But its only right that since I'm going through a tough time that I should be able to really let it out in order to gain "clarity" of the whole situation. Its still fresh so right now I am in the "shock" phase.

I feel like there are 3 parts to a breakup:
1. Shock/Pain: Its going to hurt and not put you in a good place
2. Regret: Maybe this wasnt such a good idea.
3. Acceptance: This was something that happened for a reason. Now is the time to let it be.

Going through a break up is never easy and I certainly don't make it any easier on myself when I am the one doing the "breaking". Mainly because I don't want to hurt anyone in the process. But i feel like when you try to make sure no ones feelings are hurt, it makes things worse. Or is that just me?

I'm at a point in my life where I need to work on my #1 flaw in a relationship; selfishness. Its hard for me to admit and even harder to work though. But I want to try. For now, that means I cant be in a relationship. I guess I'm not ready to share my life. Or the right person hasn't come along. How many soul mates or true loves do we get in a lifetime? I might have reached my quota/capacity and that's not a very good thought.

This relationship that just ended I wanted so badly to have a different turnout. But everything happens for a reason and because of that I have to deal with whatever comes next. I badly wanted a friendship to come out of this, but it looks like that's not going to happen.

I found this poem and it sort of explains my thought process for the break up...even though it didnt entirely come out that way. Things are still fresh so maybe things will change over time....who knows.

Letting Go

by Judy Burnette

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soul mate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.

Are there any things that I can do to help lessen the shock/pain I am currently feeling?


Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Real Love...I'm searching for that real Love...

If there was anyone that made me feel like soul mates and real true love exists, 
its my friend Tiffany and her husband Lex. After 6 years they finally tied the knot! 
I have known Tiffany since college and I love how happy Lex makes her!
Their wedding was amazing and very "them"!

This cake was so beautiful! I'm obsessed with it!

It was simple, elegant, and very classy!
Tiffany and her family planned the whole thing and it came out awesome!
Grey and light green (I don't know the correct color name) are such great colors together.
It was all way beyond my thoughts and expectations!

Her dress was custom made!

Tiffany walked down the aisle to a live version of  "When I First Saw You" and I definitely teared up. 
It was sung beautifully and of course the bride looked gorgeous!

Sunglasses were the wedding favors with the wedding date. So cute!

Our table had the all the ladies who have known Tiff and Lex for a long time!

The best part of the night was the dancing. 
The DJ played everything and we stayed on the dance floor for awhile. 
A Sunday afternoon wedding is definitely different, but it was still nice and intimate.
I wish Tiff and Lex all the best and it will be great to see their marriage bloom from the very beginning!


Monday, June 10, 2013

May Carabox

Yes it is June.
Yes I am doing a post for my May Carabox.
But i wanted to make sure it happened.

My box this month was from the lovely Tanya of The Baksha Five and I really enjoyed chatting and getting to know her! She is such a sweetheart and I really loved everything in my package.
She really paid attention to all the things that I liked and she definitely stayed with the theme better than I did!

1. How to make a Chicago Hot Dog: I thought this was so cute! She gave me an idea to throw a party with a hot dog bar! I want to be an event planner and I love having gatherings especially in the summer so I hope to get to try this out!
2. Chicago Postcard
3. Zebra Nail File: She knew I liked animal print and you definitely can never have too many of these. I keep this one in my purse.
4. EOS. The best ever. Enough said.
5. Cracker Jack. I love Garretts popcorn from Chicago, but she couldnt get me any. But she still got me popcorn and Cracker Jacks are awesome too!
6. Chicago Bulls Headbands: I am a Derrick Rose fan, but Lebron James is my man!!! But i still will rock these next season when the Bulls play!
7. Lemonheads. All the candy Tanya sent was made in Illinois. So cool. This includes the Skittles and Starburst.

Not pictured:
Skittles (ate them the same day lol)
 Starburst  (devoured as soon as I opened the package)
Chipotle Gift Card: I LOVE Chipotle and i used my gift card the DAY that i got it!

My box rocked!!!


Cara Box